徐贤说的一句很好的话。想做的事和必须做的事是应该分开的～
请你自重，中受你的个人时间表。
请你跟着自己的原则走。当一个人连原则都没有时，那他还有价值吗？
就这样～
Monday, 28 January 2013
Saturday, 19 January 2013
家的定义是什么？
有谁能告诉我家的定义是什么
家不是一个能让你放下武装，
能舒服休息的地方吗？
但是为什么回到家就是无止尽的争吵，
无止尽的家务，
无止尽愚蠢的看着那根本没垃圾的地上。
你知不知道，
这个家对我来说已经失去了休息的意义。
你知不知道当我很累想休息，想睡觉时，
我也只能呆在学校，
因为回来也还需要服侍你
我真的好累，
所以我宁愿呆在学校，
虽然我缺乏安全感
在那么开放的地方根本也睡不好
但是至少能眯一下眼
不需要跟你吵。
你知不知道
我的课其实不是从在上到晚上
但是你知道为什么我喜欢呆在学校吗？
不是因为那里有朋友（我根本没什么朋友，在学校里现在连一个能谈心，交心的朋友也没有）
是因为我在家里面对的就是无止尽的工作。
你知不知道我真的很累。
没有精神上的寄托，
真的好累。
我也是个正常的人
想被爱，想被疼。
是个很奢侈的愿望吗？
是吧，没有付出，却想被爱，
很自私吧。
但是，只要你先付出，我一定会回报你，
不敢付出因为害怕，
我本来就是个没什么安全感的人
我本来就是个没什么自信的人呀。
我的自信源至于别人对我的肯定
但是一切努力被否定后
那我该怎么办。
我只是想累了的时候有个依靠
就这样。
我真的好累。
我只希望有个人能爱我。
不爱我吧。
有自己就好了吧。
这些都是骗人的。
是被伤害后，害怕再度被伤害
而为自己准备的保护膜
隔绝了一切
就能不再被伤害
不是吗？
但是还是渴望着呢。
好笑吧，
怕被伤害但是又狠不下心把一切都隔绝，因为还抱有一丝希望，
但是又害怕付出，
可笑之极。
那就是我。
Even a beast don't bite the hand that feeds one
Even a beast don't bite the hand that feeds one
and well let me be the beast then.
I couldn't figure out what's the point of staying in this house and or the so called home.
Isn't a home is supposed to be one that you can let down all your armanents,
and shed your camouflage,
but why it isn't the case to me.
and well let me be the beast then.
I couldn't figure out what's the point of staying in this house and or the so called home.
Isn't a home is supposed to be one that you can let down all your armanents,
and shed your camouflage,
but why it isn't the case to me.
Friday, 18 January 2013
Come back
I just realised
It has been about 1 year since I last came here.
And a glimpse on my last post,
It was on my last birthday,
a year back
3 April 2012
When I was still
20 years old.
Now the days were different
and it is going to be difference in the future anyway.
Since i am no longer a child, legally.
I am 21 this year.
Well, officially an adult
Whose signature is recognised in law.
Now I would be hold liable for my own act, speech , everything.
I need to be fully responsible for myself.
Ask me if I have grown up, mentally, emotionally?
The answer is a BIG NO NO~
But i need to learn through the hard way, is not it?
That's how ppl grow.
Stumble through my way
Tread along the difficult/solitary path.
Lead a solitary life.
That's how ppl grow.
Fake a smile on the face.
Curry favour with anyone who might be helpful to you?
It has been about 1 year since I last came here.
And a glimpse on my last post,
It was on my last birthday,
a year back
3 April 2012
When I was still
20 years old.
Now the days were different
and it is going to be difference in the future anyway.
Since i am no longer a child, legally.
I am 21 this year.
Well, officially an adult
Whose signature is recognised in law.
Now I would be hold liable for my own act, speech , everything.
I need to be fully responsible for myself.
Ask me if I have grown up, mentally, emotionally?
The answer is a BIG NO NO~
But i need to learn through the hard way, is not it?
That's how ppl grow.
Stumble through my way
Tread along the difficult/solitary path.
Lead a solitary life.
That's how ppl grow.
Fake a smile on the face.
Curry favour with anyone who might be helpful to you?
靠岸。
So I
Am always
Searching for an island
For a small ship like me
to rest on
Every time when I am tired
Weak and lethargic
When the hectic world
Drilled all my energy
When the cruel world
Crumbled my dream
Whenever and whenever
I feel I am no longer need
whenever and whenever
I feel I am not being Loved
So I
Pray for you
So I
Wait for you
So do I
Miss you
Crazily
Park Jung Soo.
Am always
Searching for an island
For a small ship like me
to rest on
Every time when I am tired
Weak and lethargic
When the hectic world
Drilled all my energy
When the cruel world
Crumbled my dream
Whenever and whenever
I feel I am no longer need
whenever and whenever
I feel I am not being Loved
So I
Pray for you
So I
Wait for you
So do I
Miss you
Crazily
Park Jung Soo.
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